Old News?

So i havent posted in a while, and I have some time on my hands...

A few things...

1. I wasn't re-invited back to my school. Which means I don't know where I'm going to go next year. So I've been freaking out. My mom put me in MZ so I didn't have to go to Central. Since I'm out of MZ, I don't know where I'm going to go.

2. I took my first piss test. I haven't gotten my results back.

3. I'm lonely as fuck.

4. I think I'm getting a new job over at the Bridge Cafe.

5. School is stressing me out.

6. I'm now 17.

Getting a new job?

YES!

I had to clean up some guys piss at the bar. Take the term, 'piss ass drunk' too far?...yup!
I didn't know it was piss until i asked the manager exactly what it was. i was ripshit.

But..I talked to the guy over at at the Bridge Cafe. he said that he's opening up a fine dinning restaurant a couple of doors down, and that they will prob. need me. I hope I dont have my hopes too high. They said come back to him in a month. They are taking interviews sometime around then.

oh...okay.

January was the worst.

The sweet, is never as sweet, without the sour...

Tonight is going to be sooo shitty. I have to work, and its the Superbowl. I'm just going to be lazy, and stay out of everyone's way.

Ummmm...So basically I've just been feeling like shit. Last week I was on the top of the world. Everything was going good. Now, I feel depressed?. Gina seems to be the only person that can cheer me up lately. We're both going through the same shit. We laughed about it today. How we were in the same position around 2 1/2 months ago, and now its back. I have no clue to do anymore. My friends also brought up my situation a few days ago, without them knowing.

Yesterday wasn't too bad for me. I went over to Rita's. When I got there we were goofing off, watching tv, and playing some hacky sack. I remember two summers ago, I got so into it. I'm rusty now. I get barely the tricks down that I used to do all the time. Rusty.

I feel winter just keeps dragging on, and on. I need summer to come! I hoping to have a car by then. Having a car, is going to but the biggest thing that will happen to me in a while. I'm always asking other people to drive me around to run my errands, and the shit I need to get out of the way. They don't mind, but there are things I like to do on my own.

California Dreaming..

What do I want to do when I'm older? I'v become so confused trying to figure out the future of my life. I know that I won't ever know. But its that fact, that bugs the shit out of me. I want to know what I will have to go through. Growing up has its ups, and down doesnt it.

...& The Livings Easy.

Fuck you winter! I want summer. I had my itunes on shuffle the other day. "burn One Down" comes on. That was the song I listened to every day in the summer. I miss everything about it....

Long car rides with the windows down.
Sunglasses.
No shirts.
Cigarettes.
The girls.
Walks.
The beach.
Night time.
Lemonade.
Shorts.
Bedroom window open.
No school.
Rope swings.
Swimming.
Parties.
Frisbee.
Bonfires.
Fireworks.
Boating.
Cliff jumping.
Soft serve.
Hook ups.
Boat shoes.
Cut-offs
Speeding
The nights that are too hot for anyone to sleep.
Trampoline.
The girls.
Arizona Green Tea.

"Superiorize this bitch!"

Hhahaha. STFU!